Releasing Resolutions

ReleaseTo free from something that binds, fastens or holds back. To let go of.

New Year’s Resolutions have NEVER worked for me, but something I have started doing over the past few years is what I’ve come to call ONE WORD. It is where I focus on hearing from Him on what the theme of the upcoming year will be for me…just ONE WORD. Instead of chasing after a list of resolutions that lead me to feel frustrated as I continue to fall short on my ambitious plans because of my efforts to do ‘too much’!

Can I get an ‘Amen, sister’!?!?!?

By focusing on just ONE WORD I discover it gives me more clarity, passion and purpose for every area of my life. It brings me simplicity and focus. Helps me to cut through the distractions and keeps me focused on what really matters. I try to stretch this ONE WORD theme into every area of my life: spiritually, physically, mentally, emotionally, relationally and even financially. Everyone’s ONE WORD is different as God is moving each of us through different seasons of life! This practice doesn’t have to begin at New Years…you can start it at anytime. Just spend some time seeking Him for where He is leading you. It is a process, not instant gratification, as He reveals to you your theme for the year!

This year, I feel that He keeps whispering ‘RELEASE’ into my heart. To be honest, I’m having a hard time embracing this one. For one that loves control, clings to routine…this is a hard one! Spiritually speaking, I feel as if He is gently requesting to release all I have found comfort and security in…letting it go, for His way! To let go of my ways, my thoughts, my plans, my comforts, my way as I know it…My heart is pounding, almost ripping through my chest as I know for me, this is going to take beyond a miracle! But since it is Him who gently requests, I know I am in better Hands than my own self!

“…let us strip off and throw aside every encumbrance (unnecessary weight) and that sin which so readily clings to and entangles us, and let us run with patient endurance and steady and active persistence the appointed course of the race that is set before us. Looking away (from all that will distract) to Jesus, Who is the Leader and the Source of our faith and is also its Finisher (bringing it to maturity and perfection). He, for the joy (of obtaining the prize) that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising and ignoring the shame, and is now seated at the right hand of the throne of God.” ~Hebrews 12:1-2

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Failing Forward

Because You have given me TWO of Your greatest blessings, I seek you more than ever. Yet I fail forward on a daily basis. I yearn for those quiet calm moments I’ve known before where I could fully release myself to You without interruptions and distractions. Yet somehow I have found a way to become hindered, guarded in my time with You as there is always another needing my time, energy, abilities or my mind is wrapped up in the chaos that I’ve created in my head. The knots are tight and unwilling to give way in order to release clarity of thought to give you more. More than the small, thin and fragile crevices of moments I offer. Frustrated that the shouts of the world drive me away from deliberately settling into the quiet whispers of Your voice.

Failing forward with the tenderness of knowing you cover me in this time. Your grace. Your strength. Your compassion. Motherhood is never ending, but may I fully embrace the shift of seasons it produces that aligns my heart closer to yours!

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Weekend Webbing

8809888eb312a801fb6587d81be78607   ‘Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.’ ~Psalm 37:4

 

Having a hard time believing that it is almost JULY?? Yes, that’s me! A precious little boy’s birthday is quickly approaching and as his Mommy, I’ve been actively planning his 3rd birthday party! He’s had a ‘firetruck’ theme idea for months now. So, we’ve contacted the local fire station and they are sending an engine to the house for the kids as well as having a ‘firetruck’ bounce house in our backyard. We’ve ordered the firetruck cake, have the fire chief hats for all of our guests and have a list of theme related foods to purchase. Pinterest has been a bittersweet relationship as I find the greatest ideas, yet know that I don’t have the time or energy to put together all those cute doo~daddles. (yes, that just became a word)

In the midst of all this planning, it can wear me out mentally. So, I hop on the web to do some other kind of relaxing therapy. On-line shopping has been my outlet since I refuse to shop with the littles in person. JUST.NOT.WORTH.IT! I’ve found a few treasures that I would love. I mean my birthday is in July too! 🙂

I’m kinda in love with this lace top. Would be really happy for it to join my other friends in my closet! Perfect and light for summer and can be worn in so many ways! Very versatile buy!

I’ve been wanting to get my hands on this study for a few weeks now. I know I will be purchasing it and can’t wait to dig deep into these words!

Hobo bags are a favorite of mine! I do not own one, but visually I love them! They are just a bit of indulgence for my budget but there is nothing wrong with wishing! This Sheila satchel in Caramel is a beauty.

After looking at the Sheila Hobo, it reminds me of my priorities….get back to planning and spend the money on the little boy that lights up your world! Celebrate the one that gave me a Mommy hat to wear. May your weekend be filled with abundant blessings and joy!

Unitl next time ~ Blessings!

~Shana

 

‘Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.’ ~Psalm 37:4

 

 

DIY Family Chalkboard Calendar

I have been wanting to create a Goff family calendar for awhile now in order to help our family stay better organized in schedules. It proves to be more challenging with 2 toddlers under the age of 3 to get any simple item checked off my to do list. So, it was not any different with this project. At times, it became a thought to just purchase one already made up but then the reality of the sticker shock reeled me back in to do a DIY. There is no way I can justify purchasing this for well over $100 when I can do it myself for under $15.

I searched everywhere for a background frame that I could brush over with chalkboard paint. I found a gem at Hobby Lobby for $13 that had already been painted with chalkboard but had an unfinished wood trim. It was perfect, and I couldn’t agree more with the price!! I wanted the trim to be the exact same color as the crown molding and base boards in our home. This was perfect in allowing me to do that.

Step 1: Sanded down the wood frame to create a clean, smooth surface.

Step 2: Painted the wood trim giving it 3 good coats.

Step 3: Researched the different ways I wanted the layout and design of our calendar. Then began measuring and sectioning it off to create the format.

Step 4: Filled in the days of the week, dates of the month, the name of each month and then all of our commitments and scheduled events.

Step 5: Waited  for Goff to hang it! (This one took the longest!!) 🙂

I do not have much of an artistic gene inside of me, but I am happy with our final finished product!

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Intentional Living

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‘I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck all the marrow out of life.’ ~Henry David Thoreau

I recently finished reading Notes From A Blue Bike: The Art of Living Intentionally in a Chaotic World by Tsh Oxenreider. This is a wonderful read if you desire to live a better life making conscious choices that align with your values in life. A challenge to live more simply, more fully and with more purpose.

‘What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.’ ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

 In reading this book, I couldn’t help but become challenged to look at my own life to see where I could tweak adjustments in order to live this one life I’ve been given with more intention. I am starting with 3 and will build from there.

  1. Purposely slowing down to enjoy the very process of living more intentionally. I wanted to create a unique daily ritual that would serve as a reminder to me the importance of  this. In my world, when the littles wake up my day is a go with any ‘ME’ going out the window. So, if I want to capture a moment that speaks to my spirit and energizes my soul, the time has to be found on purpose. I intentionally get up a few hours before the rest of the house and do different things such as: exercise, shower, devotional time, read, blog or journal. Doing a combination of these things delights my heart and helps bring quality inner peace to help clear the clutter and chaos.
  2. Increase sensitivity to the little things in life. I usually compare my days with my littles to the movie Groundhog Day. Our schedule is structured and aligned to their needs and brings them comfort in knowing the routine. Yet, there are little tweaks in each moment of the day to bring a bit of uniqueness to it. So instead of letting the monotony mangle my mind, I shift my thoughts to seeing the small, little changes. The new words my youngest is speaking, the chatterbox my oldest is becoming, the sweet embraces and kisses of siblings, laughter that erupts when gas is passed (yes, I have boys!!), the excitement they have when they see me…because these moments will not last forever. They will transition into new phases as their little lives change them into little men in the blink of an eye. I want to keep a keen sensitivity to these little things in life so I created a gratitude journal that I write these blessings down to help me to remember the moment now as well as a list to reflect on later to remember what was.
  3. Making daily choices that align my life with passions and values that reflects my unique personality. There are so many different paths one can journey along. To me, this is weeding through the mass quantity in order to value the quality. I’m applying this in different areas of my life, but for a simple example I am putting it to use in the world of the web. With all types of social media ~ facebook, instagram, twitter, pinterest, etc…it can be overwhelming and quite burdensome to navigate through these daily. I’ve chosen a few I want to invest in while putting aside the others for a season. I’ve done the same with blogs I enjoy reading. I could literally get lost within myself reading blogs all day. There are many great ones out there! Yet, I’ve chosen a few that I will read on a regular basis that fit my personality and interests best (weeding through the mass to value quality).

If you find yourself following your life instead of consciously making daily choices that align your life to your passions and personality, you might enjoy this book. It is not one that you read once and never pick back up. It will be one that I revisit often to guide me deeper into this intentional living.

A Few of My Favorite Things

By Shana Goff

 

It’s starting to get that time of the year when our clothes become lighter and our skin gets darker. Where there is a deep settling within our souls of a more relaxed way of life. With even as active as my life tends to stay on a daily basis, I find that during this time of the year I am led with a gentler sense of myself.

I’ve come across some things that have made my  want list…my birthday is coming up soon! It’s right around the corner…3 months away! 🙂

 This lovely needs to find its way into my closet very soon! I absolutely adore this Olive & Oak lace shirt dress. A classic white dress never goes out of style and can be fashioned int many different ways! Did I mention it is on sale?

I can never have too many little black heels. I have a hard time justifying many things, black shoes is not one of them. Loft has these delicate beauties, and I’m seriously crushing over them!

Have you ever heard of Kelly Moore bags? I live out of my purse, honestly, it’s more like a luggage bag. So, I have to make sure what I carry can carry not only all my stuff but the littles as well. The Esther bag shown here is the one I’ve mentioned to the hubby. All the colors are beautiful, but caramel is more my style.

For a fun idea, what do you think of this tee? Love the camouflage, as I feel most days I’m in the trenches of Motherhood. What a light hearted, fun way to drift through the spring/summer months.

May this beautiful time of the year welcome you with the delights of your heart. Enjoy the lighter pace of life!

 

 

 

One Moment When My Smile Was Lost

“Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her.” ~Proverbs 31:28

Recently read a devotional blog post on-line called The Day I Lost My Smile by Lysa Terkeurst, where she recounted all the duties as a Mom she had with lunch kits, backpacks as well as taking her children to school on time while also juggling her own work responsibilities. Always overwhelmed and running either late or behind. Can you relate?

The Motherhood world is challenging, not to mention increasingly complex and mind numbing at times. Overwhelmed by the demands of the littles, the world, other people and for me the case of MYSELF!! It’s as if this cloud of chaotic clutter hangs over me.

I remember a significant ‘MOM’ent when I became quite aware that my smile was lost. I woke up in my usual ‘early bird’ good mood. I headed upstairs to get a quick workout in on the treadmill, and it hit me as I was standing in the shower ~ water pouring over me washing away all the ‘stink’ of what life was throwing at me. I noticed that something deep within was lacking.

Desire. Passion. My heartbeat. All gone. Along with it the joy in my spirit that my smile was attached to. As I got dressed and ready for yet another day, that to be honest, I didn’t want to do, (insert the movie Groundhog Day here), I welcomed the hot tears and let them stream down my freshly made up face.

That morning as I went about the ritual of lighting our candles in our home that serves as a reminder that I am to shine His Light to those I love most, I could feel the weight of my heavier heart as it sunk deeper inside of me. Thoughts of being a horrible Mommy for not wanting to be a stay at home Mommy that day and resentment for being stretched too thin without a much needed break crept into my heart.

These words came to my heart as I remember reading them from Lysa (yes, I know…I read a lot of Lysa’s words!!), “Bad moments don’t make bad Mommys.” She has such a great way of putting words into those very complex emotions we all feel. Goff, my husband, and I sat down to put steps in place to reinvent how our family could function healthier. Changes are moving us forward and transitions for our family are coming. (Prayers regarding these changes are much appreciated..but that is another post one day).

Through this process I feel that my peace, passioned purpose and joy are finding their way back to me…along with that missing smile.

As we approach this Mother’s Day weekend, I honor, respect, support, applaud, encourage, pray over and love each woman blessed to be known as Mommy!

“Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her.” ~Proverbs 31:28

Boys and Beautiful Bluebonnets

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Spring time.

                      Texas.

                                   BLUEBONNETS!!!!

 

In early Spring the state flower of Texas, the bluebonnet, begins blooming its beauty in certain parts of the state. It is a well known tradition for families to flock to fields covered with these treasures and take pictures of their children nestled around the bluebonnets. Growing up myself, I didn’t live in an area where the bluebonnets thrived, but fortunately for my children, we now do! We are so blessed to literally just drive 5 minutes down the road to capture these. My boys are still very young and  ALL things ‘boy’… not really into capturing the beauty of a well photographed picture (like their Mommy)! Here are a few of the best ones we captured this year:

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Perfectly Imperfect

‘Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb. I thank you, High God ~ you’re breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration ~ what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day. Your thoughts ~ how rare, how beautiful! God, I’ll never comprehend them!’  ~Psalm 139: 13-17 (The Message)

I have always said that there is one thing, without a doubt, that I am perfect at. I’m quite the expert at it! Pretty sure no one can do it any better. I have had many years, situations and experiences to perfect it! I would wear my gold star (by the way, I love to get gold stars…I mean, who doesn’t right?), but I try to be a pretty humble human being. 🙂

What is this great and wonderful perfection that she owns? Don’t be jealous when I let you in on it, but I am quite perfect at being imperfect! #PerfectlyImperfect

Imperfection defined by Webster is ‘a flaw; fault or defect’. Yes, I have many of those. Let’s see where do I begin? Well, we could start with my physical flaws that I really can’t change: an enormous forehead that takes up what feels like half my face, my pinocchio nose that has a weird indention at the tip, my pencil shaped body frame or my long ‘giraffe’ neck…just to name a few. Or we could focus on the behavioral imperfections I have developed. That would include: people pleasing, unrealistic ideal self image, caring too much what others think of me along with a tendency to be a detailed planner. I also carry some baggage of negative thoughts and grumbling that can become quite heavy if not extended to Him to carry. I took  to my Facebook and Instagram community and was encouraged by the authentic transparency of those that commented. The list included: control of everything, jealousy, perfectionism, self image/body image, difficulty defining true beauty, carrying the weight of the world, and trying to ‘fix’ everything. Some related to my own such as pleasing others, worry, negative thoughts, grumbling and comparison.

There are situations and maybe even people that enter our world to bring to the surface the intensity that these insecurities are embedded within us. I know this to be truth in my own life where I thought I was no longer insecure regarding an area until a situation arose to help me realize how strong it was within me. The idea of this post was birthed as I was having a conversation with my mother in~law. She complimented on the scarf I was wearing, in which I replied, “Yes, I have to cover up my giraffe neck.”  (True story…I said those insecure words out loud!!!) Her response “Oh Shana, you have a swan neck that is absolutely beautiful.” Why do I tend to focus on all my unique qualities and view them in such a negative, ‘there is something wrong with me’ perspective.

The issue isn’t that we have these struggles as His Word says that, ‘in the world you will have trials and tribulations, but I have overcome the world’; it is to Whom we take them to and the actions we do in response to them that allows us to embrace them fully. To be fully rooted and grounded in your identity in Christ! When I react in a way that disagrees with my spirit, I pray a simple, short prayer of 3 words, “Change me, Lord.” There is a reason for my reaction in which God desires to make me a better me and more into His image.

“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” ~Psalm 51:10

In my own journey, as everyone’s is different, I am learning this is a process…a daily decision on my part to pray these insecurities up and release them in the reality of His perfection. I  know that He created me perfectly  with such flaws not to make me imperfect but to reveal His perfection and strength in my weaknesses. To Him be all the glory! I know the need for Him through my imperfections which helps me to own and love them. Finding a new found freedom to embrace the confident and beautiful woman He destined me to be!

 

Weekend Webbing

Top three words right now….It’s.The.Weekend!! Right? As a stay at home Mommy, the weekend really is just another two days, but there are two extra hands to help out…known as Daddy! The weeks have been on the rougher side lately so I scheduled some much needed down time. Not that I did anything extravagant, but just a few relaxing things to unwind. So, what did I do to disconnect, you ask? Why, I connected to the world wide web of course! 

 

  • Some goals I have set for this week include:
  1.  Finishing 2 books that are speaking my language right now. The first one is called Notes from a Blue Bike: The Art of Living Intentionally in a Chaotic World by Tsh Oxenreider and the other is Praying for Boys: Asking God for the Things They Need Most by Brooke McGlothlin.
  2. Finishing a custom design chalkboard calendar for our family’s increasing activities. Once I’m done with my DIY project…I’ll be sure to post pics!
  3.  Personal goal of writing/blogging 3 times a week. Two seems too few and 4 seems unreachable…so we are compromising on 3.

Wishing you all a wonderful rest of the weekend! May you be abundantly blessed this week.